Moving Day

I am so worried and anxious and my stomach is tied in a knot. I have to call the owner of the apt on Uitca and eastern Pkwy and talk him into accepting the program. I am really scared to hear no because it would take me back to zero. Everything tells me that this is the place for us and that we will get it and it will be a springboard to bigger and better things. Please Universe, be with me. Bless me and help Isaac to see the good in renting to me. Please help bring us together.

Its in the cards and I feel it in my gut.

What Covers You

Ace of Wands

Briefly: Perhaps a move interstate or overseas. Life is about to flourish and grow in more ways than you can imagine.

Full Meaning: This a beautiful card to just look at. On it is a hand reaching out from the sky holding a branch that is sprouting green leaves. This is very symbolic of a new life. You may be about to uproot yourself and move to a totally different location. You could even move interstate or overseas. Life is about to flourish and grow in more ways than you can imagine. There could very well be mountains nearby in the place you are planning on moving to. The sky is blue and the world is your oyster.
Now is the most favourable time to consider what possibilities lay ahead. A business venture may be undertaken now that builds a solid and secure future for you and your family. Take the initiative and move into new territory, for the old has little to offer, whereas the new is fresh and inspiring to you.
If there is a proposition is put to you in the near future it would be potentially prosperous and the likelihood of producing all the things your life needs.


What Crosses You

The Hierophant

Briefly: A man of wisdom and vast experience of life. A guiding light in the dark, a kind and inspiring man you can call on for guidance and advice.

Full Meaning:

This major arcana card is one of a little mystery. The man pictured looks like he knows all the answers. He is clothed in regal attire suggestive of a link with royalty. He looks too like a religious man, perhaps a priest, and the sceptre in his hand is a symbol of mastery and possibly also magic.

He appears to be an elderly man, a man of wisdom and vast experience of life. He seems like a guiding light in the dark. If this card represents you, then you are quite likely at the stage in your life where everything is under control. You have walked the rocky road of life and have mastered the techniques to reach a time of achievement and satisfaction. You may have reached all your previous goals and can now sit back and perhaps rest on your laurels if that is what you choose to do. It is a time of equilibrium, balance and serenity. The troubles of the world are behind you, and now you can take the time out to rest without too many challenges ahead.

If this card represents someone in your life, you obviously look up to this person with great respect. He may have been, and still is, you best friend, your mentor, your confidante. He is a kind and inspiring man and you may have called on him for guidance and advice, which he gave with compassion and willingness. He may even be a spiritual guru who showed you the way when it was dark or in your hour of greatest need. He would have aided you in finding your path in life or gave hints of the mysteries that can often be hidden even from those who search for the meaning of life so compellingly. He is the keeper of the knowledge of life and will share it with those who seek it. He is the eternal philosopher and seeker of truth.

The keys can often be symbolic of new keys coming into your life, such as new house keys or car keys. It can also show you to be aware of where you leave your keys as you may find that you accidently misplace them, which can prove to be very inconvenient. As keys can represent a new direction you are about to take in life, this may suggest that the time is ripe to make significant life changes right now or in the very near future. This card can also represent marriage.



What Crowns You

King of Cups

Briefly: There is success ahead for you, especially if you follow your instincts.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a good looking, blue eyed, clean shaven man.  He is wearing a head-dress of some type and is heavily draped in colourful clothing.  He carries a wand in his left hand and a cup in his right.  He appears regal and conservative.  His calm outer nature may disguise a very gentle and sensitive soul. He may be born under a water sign of either Cancer, Scorpio or Pisces.  He is compassionate, caring and considerate to others needs.  In the background there is the ocean, which partly reflects his nature as being deep and potentially mysterious.  If you are this man, you are on your way to reaching your goals.  There is success ahead for you, especially if you follow your instincts at every turn.  If you are a woman and you draw this card, you may be about to meet him and he will play a pivotal role in your life and may even become your husband.  He will be protective of you and look upon the family as his most significant inspiration and reason for happiness.


What Is Beneath You

Five of Cups

Briefly: 5 days associated with an event that will not be so happy or positive.

Full Meaning: This card shows a man with his head lowered and he is facing the ocean and a cliff top in the distance. On the ground in front if him is three cups spilling out red liquid. Behind him are two cups. He looks sad and alone. The dark clouds in the sky signify sadness. There is a time frame of about five days associated with an event that will not be so happy or positive. However, all things must eventually come to an end and we experience pain and hurt because we are human. Even though the person is experiencing some loss, there is still hope and this is symbolised by the two cups behind him, suggesting that he cannot see this at this point in time, but it is definitely there. This man will eventually pick up the pieces and move on, but has to grieve his loss as he is a human being and will feel this way for some time before he can be healed and renewed. The card often symbolises winter, but can also represent a cold time in the persons life, or there is a separation of some type that is causing this temporary sadness. When the time has passed he will see that there is always hope for a new life and he will start anew, but it may be in a new season such as Spring.


What Is Behind You

Nine of Swords

Briefly: An amount of inner tension that needs to find an outlet.

Full Meaning: When you draw this card you are experience a huge amount of inner tension that needs to find an outlet. You could feel you are in a stranglehold situation in various areas of your life and it may seem insurmountable at this time. However, this is quite a temporary state of affairs. All you really have to do is decide what it is that you really want to do about your life and current situation, and then start the wheels in motion to bring it about. This card is also about thoughts and how your thinking is strongly affecting your actions. If your thoughts are depressed, then you may find that you don’t quite know just yet how to change anything. All is not lost. You just need to try to alter your thinking slightly and soon you will gain a new perspective. It is just a matter of a little time to allow the thought process to really sink in and then you can take the required action to do what it is necessary to change your life. The amount of time required may also very well correspond with the number nine, e.g. nine days or nine weeks or in the ninth month of September may somehow be relevant. Whatever you do, don’t allow other people to make your decisions at this point in time, for you may be very misled and later regret whatever action you took that was not your own true wish.


What Is Before You

Two of Cups

Briefly: Perhaps a new love is going to appear and involve some long-range commitment for you, the birth of a child or new found love.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a man and a woman looking at each other and each one has a cup in the left hand and they are making a toast. There are some heavy black clouds in the background and these may indicate a period of time, such as further in the distance, or in the past. Perhaps a new love is going to appear and involve some long-range commitment for you. The number two can represent time as in days, weeks or months and this may indicate when the encounter will take place. The woman may also become pregnant early on in the relationship, or if a married couple have been trying and this has been delayed or hindered in some way, now it may eventuate. Also there can be a celebration of some kind and this of course could indicate the celebration of the birth of a child. If you are single and looking for romance, then it may be on its way and you could find this person proves to be your soulmate.


Your Self

Four of Wands

Briefly: Perhaps the family is becoming more important to you or one long distant family member is coming to stay or you are planning to visit their home.

Full Meaning: This is a beautiful card to behold. To me it appears that there is a castle in the distance, on a hill-top and the two wands on either side seem to represent the entrance or gateway to this lovely home. The garland of flowers draped over the wands give an impression of comfort, warmth and beauty. For some this card can mean that you are about to move house. The new one will be a significant improvement on the current abode. If you have already just moved, then the emphasis will be on relaxation and a sanctuary way from the hustle and the bustle of city life. A home in the country would be a suitable location to be living in. Serenity and peace will be the mode of daily living. Perhaps the family is becoming more important to you or one long distant family member is coming to stay or you are planning to visit their home, which is probably at a distance from where you are at the moment.


Around You

Six of Cups

Briefly: There are fortunate and fun events coming if you allow yourself time to stop and smell the roses.

Full Meaning: This card shows a young girl and a young boy facing each other and around them are six cups filled with flowers. This is often associated with memories of past events, in youth or with your early family life. Perhaps someone from your past catches up with you and brings some good news into your life. It is also a card suggesting that you allow the child within to come out and have some fun and get togethers with those you care about. The season can be representative of Spring or Summer and also suggesting that that time will bring happiness and contentment. You may also be on the receiving end of some lovely gifts, and sometimes particularly flowers. There are fortunate and fun events coming if you allow yourself time to stop and smell the roses, so to speak and to get out there amongst others in the world and socialise. You may also purchase new clothes during the coming few months.


Hopes and Fears

Five of Swords

Briefly: A time where one person has won out at the expense of two other people.

Full Meaning: There are 3 people in the picture and one of them has the upper hand in the matter. The other two have lost something that they valued, whether it was love, a material possession of whatever to the one who is holding the swords.

In the background there is the Sun setting so this can indicate early evening. One of the people is appears to be sad and crying. He has lost whatever he/she once had and is now sorry, but it is all too late. Generally I read this as one person has won out at the expense of two other people and they are walking away with their trophy, person or thing of value. The others have lost out and they now know it. They may feel they have been betrayed, but they weren’t, it was a matter of the best one winning, and there could only be one winner in this situation. Usually this means that you are the one who is the winner



Two of Swords

Briefly: There are decisions to be made.

Full Meaning: To draw this card shows that there are decisions to be made. However all the facts may not be in at this point in time. There could be something about to crop up that you are not aware of and it may come to light later. Often something is not seen in the clear light of day or there is an unknown factor involved. Time is often of the essence and it is usually worth waiting it out for awhile to see what may arise to clarify the issue. Making a decision with all the facts is much easier than with only half the information.
Sometimes this card can indicate a problem with the eyes. Maybe an operation will be required, an injury may occur, or glasses need to be prescribed, or new glasses or some other matter involving the eyesight.
If this card is not you, or is unlikely to represent any situation directly involving you, then it is possible that it may relate to someone close to you. They may need your insight, or wisdom to help them sort out a dilemma they are in. There may be a situation where someone has to choose between two differing options and is not sure which is the most appropriate one to select.



Sad as Fuck

I feel so depressed, tired and discouraged. My energy is so low it has to be hormonal. I am not expecting my period till next week so its not that per se but damn, its something just like it.

A while ago, this astrologer told me that my chart was all fucked up. he said I have Saturn and Mars at -5, everything else bad, Jupiter at a measly +1 and Mercury, the strongest at a weak ass +3. That shit has me fucked up.

Big Dreams of Small Things

So…today, I have to get all of my shit out of this apt and into Puffs because the owner of the building is coming and he can’t see it here. Ok, but damn do I have alot of shit. Last week, I went and got the stuff from the old place and bought it here. Don’t get me wrong, I threw 90% of it out once we got here but its still alot. I need to find my place soon. I want to build my house, Universe.

Ok, done. I dont even want to talk about the eight hours it took. Its all good : ))).

I just did a tarot reading and I am so feeling this:

What Covers You


Briefly: The slate will be wiped clean for a fresh start. There will be none of the old left, so a whole new approach needs to be established before true renewal can take place. Sometimes when we draw this card, major events seems to unfold around us that challenge our thinking and our direction in life.

Full Meaning: This shows a grim reaper and a white rose at the same time. The Sun is setting in the background of the card, indicating the end of daylight hours. This is the card of endings, renewal and transformation of the highest order. The slate will be wiped clean for a fresh start. There will be none of the old left, so a whole new approach needs to be established before true renewal can take place. Sometimes when we draw this card, major events seems to unfold around us that challenge our thinking and our direction in life. Sometimes an unpleasant event shows us the way to a new path. This may seem traumatic at the time, but it is also saying that the old ways are no longer valid, or of value in your new life. It is time to cast aside whatever is hindering your progress in life and make a whole new start. Turn the leaf, sow new seeds, wear new clothes, change your appearance, move house, leave that boring job and get out there and dance. Life can end at any moment for any of us, so it is how wisely we spend our time here that really matters. You can still be serious about some aspects of your life, but leave plenty of room open for fun and for spontaneity. When we are on our death-bed, we will wish we had kicked up our heels more often, been more carefree, eaten more ice-cream, danced longer, sang out loud and showed others how much we love them. Don’t wait till then, do it now, while you are alive and still kicking.

What Crosses You

Seven of Wands

Briefly: You are now on your way to your destiny, to fulfil some mission that you know you have to do.

Full Meaning: This card has a picture of a strong man on it and he is wielding a long wand and in front of him are six other wands. Each of these wands has a few green leaves on it symbolising fertility. He is a man of courage and strength. He has strong hands that are put to practical use. If you are this man then you are now on your way to your destiny, to fulfil some mission that you know you have to do. You are capable and wise. You are reaping the harvest and bringing home the bacon so to speak. You are not afraid of challenge nor hard work. You set your goals high and you always attempt to achieve them, despite whatever difficulties may get in your way. If you are not this person, then this type of man is going to enter your life and make a lot of changes to it. He is only there to help and to guide you. He will not push you anywhere you don’t want to go, though will be available for advice and counselling where necessary. If you are a woman who has not yet had her first child, it is possible that a pregnancy is indicated by this card. The child may be conceived or born in winter. You will surmount all obstacles and achieve your dreams.

What Crowns You

Page of Swords

Briefly: Time to go out there and make your indelible mark on the world in your own unique way.

Full Meaning: This guy is ready for action and adventure. He is capable of acting quickly and confidently. Yet he is known to be somewhat aloof at times and may seem too young to tackle the tasks at hand. He is brave and sometimes foolishly confident. He learns well though by his mistakes, because he usually makes them while he is young.
He is often very good looking, crystal clear blue eyes, though sometimes has pure black eyes. His skin is smooth and clean shaven. He has a boyish look to his face, even when in his late twenties or early thirties. He has innocent charm and can make the girls swoon around him, yet hardly noticing that he has this affect on them. He has the wanderlust in him and will want to travel at a young age. He can hardly wait to get out there in the world and explore what life has to offer.
If this card is the querent’s card, it could be signalling the time to go out there and make your indelible mark on the world in your own unique way with no apology to anyone.
If this card is not you, you could encounter someone like him who briefly walks through your life. Cherish this while it lasts, for it may or may not last very long. He wants to be on the move and no amount of clinging will keep him from getting out the door. Let him go and he will return when he is ready.

What Is Beneath You

Two of Wands

Briefly: Time to consider a new move in your life that will make big changes to your existing living arrangements.

Full Meaning: This card shows a man with part of his back to us and he is holding a staff in one hand and a globe of the world in the other and is looking out towards a distant mountain. He appears to be studious and in deep concentration. He may be seriously considering his future. He is tall and well built and wears a cloak for warmth.
This can suggest that you are about to consider a new move in your life that will make big changes to your existing living arrangements. You may actually uproot yourself and move to another country, another state or another town. Your job is obviously undergoing some kind of transformation and you may be breaking new ground with some new endeavour. This will require your time, your patience and your strong belief in yourself that you can do anything you set out to do.
You could be presented with a rather unique opportunity that leads you on to pursue your wildest dreams. Or you may have developed your own vision or idea and be in the process of bringing this all to fruition by your very own hands. Don’t let others sidetrack you at this stage, for you are vulnerable to suggestion and may listen to some bad advice or discouragement. Trust in your own wisdom and you will ultimately have the last laugh.

What Is Behind You

Seven of Pentacles

Briefly: A bonus or raise is in the near future.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a fit young man leaning on a rake.  He is in a garden overflowing with healthy foliage, and in the background are mountains.  He is obviously a hard working man going about his business, yet with an eye to the future.  There are seven coins on the card depicting that he will gain financially from his efforts.  There could also be a bonus in the near future for him, as most of the coins are in front of him.  If this card represents yourself, you could be about to start a new job or earn an extra bonus in your pay packet.  Or perhaps someone may actually assist you by guiding you towards a lucrative financial investment. You may also distance yourself from where you now live to earn a new living.

What Is Before You

Ten of Wands

Briefly: Your objectives now need to be focussed on the long term solution to current problems, rather than just a band aid on the situation.

Full Meaning: This card shows a man struggling with a heavy load. Remember the saying “can’t see the forest for the trees?” Perhaps you need to take a step back and look at the whole picture. This may reflect some aspect of your life where you feel a little overwhelmed and unable to continue without a strong will and a determination not to fail. Your motives are of high standing and you only want what is best for everyone concerned. You will soon gain the feather in your cap and be able to move freely through life as if the coast is finally clear. Your objectives now need to be focussed on the long term solution to current problems, rather than just a band aid on the situation. Give yourself every effort to succeed and you surely will.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a beautiful woman wearing lovely clothes and a crown on her head, placed on top of lovely beaded headwear.   She holds in front of her a large pentacle and her hands are slim and well manicured.  She wears a special ring, which has a large oval stone set in it, which is possibly a ruby. There are mountains in the background, similar to those in Hawaii.  There is foliage around her and nuts growing on these. Generally she has blue eyes, though could have any eye colour.  If you are this person, you are on your way to fame and fortune.  You may come into a windfall, marry well, or somehow stumble upon a unique way to increase your income.  You will be well liked by your friends and loved by your family and husband.  You are serious, yet vulnerable.  You are calm, yet can be set back by those who stir conflict around you.  The comforts of life are important, more so for your own peace within your own mind knowing that you have what you need. If you are not this woman, then you will meet someone like her who supports you in many and varied ways.  If you are a female, this woman will become your most ardent fan and friend.  If you are a male, this woman may become your lover or your wife.  Cherish her, for she is loyal and affectionate and has your best interests at heart.

Your Self

Eight of Cups

Briefly: There are things and situations to ponder over and a time of solitude is required before a decision has to be made.

Full Meaning: This card shows a person with a hooded cloak walking with a staff near an inlet that is surrounded by tall cliffs. You cannot see the person’s face as they have their back to you. In the background is a crescent Moon. It appears to be either early morning or early evening. There are eight cups in the foreground. This is symbolic of being in a reflective state of mind. There are things and situations to ponder over and a time of solitude is required before a decision has to be made. If you draw this card you either live in a setting like this or it is not far from your home. Or perhaps you are considering moving to a seaside resort area at some point in the not too distant future. This can be a time when you choose a different course of action that puts you where you are destined to be. It is also time to consider bringing in some newness into your life and leaving the past where it belongs, in the past.

Around You

Nine of Cups

Briefly: Whatever your true heart desires will come to you with relative ease.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a content and happy man wearing colorful clothing and a large hat with a feather in it. Behind him are the nine cups and this is often called the wish card. Whatever your true heart desires will come to you with relative ease. There is a sense of satisfaction and happiness with one’s place in life. Often material gains are unfolding towards you and you will enjoy general good health and a more safe and secure lifestyle. Many celebrations and social gatherings are likely to occur in the near future and you may also attend some special dress up type parties such as fancy dress parties.

Hopes and Fears

Two of Swords

Briefly: There are decisions to be made.

Full Meaning: To draw this card shows that there are decisions to be made. However all the facts may not be in at this point in time. There could be something about to crop up that you are not aware of and it may come to light later. Often something is not seen in the clear light of day or there is an unknown factor involved. Time is often of the essence and it is usually worth waiting it out for awhile to see what may arise to clarify the issue. Making a decision with all the facts is much easier than with only half the information.
Sometimes this card can indicate a problem with the eyes. Maybe an operation will be required, an injury may occur, or glasses need to be prescribed, or new glasses or some other matter involving the eyesight.
If this card is not you, or is unlikely to represent any situation directly involving you, then it is possible that it may relate to someone close to you. They may need your insight, or wisdom to help them sort out a dilemma they are in. There may be a situation where someone has to choose between two differing options and is not sure which is the most appropriate one to select.


Queen of Pentacles

Briefly: You are on your way to fame and fortune.

Queen of Pentacles – Tarot Card Description

Queen of Pentacles – Tarot Card Meanings

Good Fortune. You need to protect your good fortune and that of those you care about. Parties that provide you with social connections can greatly benefit you. Patronise the arts and enjoy your riches as best as you can. It will pay off.

With Queens, the emphasis is on your inner state. The Queen of Pentacles is not a real, many-sided person, but she does express an ideal of a certain type. In readings, she asks you to think and feel as she does. For example: Are you feeling warm and caring toward others? Are you being sensible? Have you been true to your word? Do you feel generous? Can you be counted on when times are tough? This Queen can also represent a man or woman who is like her, or an atmosphere of warmth, trust and security. In a reading, she tells you that her special energy has meaning for you at this time. Let yourself be inspired by this Queen in whatever form she appears in your life.

The Queen of Pentacles expresses practical energy. She is the original Earth Mother. She’s the one with the rows of home-canned goods on the shelf in the root cellar. She is able to work a full-time job, take care of the children, keep the house clean, and still have time to read the financial section of the Wall Street Journal. She probably has a little nest egg tucked away in a few bank accounts that no one knows about. Her style of mothering is practical. The punishment always fits the crime. Colour on the wall? Here, take this wash cloth and clean it up. All done? Good. It’s forgotten. You will be responsible for your own actions, and she will make sure of it.

Physical description – dark haired woman. Large, strong constitution, cheerful. The ultimate mother. Personality traits – she is secure, wealthy, enjoys luxury, and abundance. Generous and sincere, but lacking sparkle. Matronly. Good head for business. Sometimes moody, generally very caring.

Pragmatic, sensuous, generous, abundance, practical, astute businesswoman, secretive, financially adept, good mother, nurturer, reserved, wealth, protective of her territory, endurance, stability, spinning and weaving, full of potential, power of prophesy, second sight, common sense, deviation, ancient tradition of earth magic, physically fit, strength, hard working, pleasures of the body, caring for and pampering the body, enjoyment of luxury, dignity, grace, prosperity, steadfast, good organiser, prosperity, harmony, regality, devoted, affectionate, warm hearted, management skills, enjoying the fruits of labour, comfort, fertility, parenthood, love of all living creatures.

Community life, takes responsibility willingly, love of nature, happy giving material help in demanding situations, shrewdness, ownership, steady employment, steady progress, evolution, voluptuous woman, material goods, all the good things in life, benefactress, emotional maturity, provider, philanthropist, display of wealth, practical wisdom, creativity, crafts, Great Mother, actions speak louder than words, confidence, down to earth, loves fresh flowers and good food, both feet on the ground, nurturer, a team player, family woman, tactile, indulgences, gifts, forgiving, firm foundation, sensible, environmentalist, bestower of life and bounty, unconditional love.

The Queen of Pentacles depicts a solitary woman, much like the one appearing in the Nine of Pentacles. However, the Queen represents fruitfulness and satisfaction to a greater degree than that expressed in the nine. Here we have the Queen of sensual enjoyment, an earth mother similar to the Empress of the Major Arcana. She sits on a throne decorated with carvings of fruit trees, goats, angels, and other symbols of material success and sensual pleasure. The tree above her and the ground beneath her feet are rich with flowers and ripe plants of all sorts and she holds in her hand a single golden pentacle, which represents her material richness. At the very lower right-hand corner of the card a rabbit, the symbol of reproduction and fertility, darts out from behind some bushes.The Queen of pentacles represents prosperity and security. The security can be either financial or physical. There will be generosity demonstrated and you will find freedom associated with this security. Want to establish yourself TO yourself, to find your ‘centre’ or place where you belong, and for words (prophecies) or ideas to come to light. Keep following your star and you will get your wish. You may have to wait but what you want WILL come.

What I have on the agenda is to go see a house tomorrow with Mike the Realtor. I dont want to say how I’m dying hoping I like it because I am so scared I’ll jinx myself but then again I am wearing the sixth and seventh seals of Jupiter and So far its brought me very good luck, calm and everything going good.  I hope the house is perfect. I hope I love it and its the best thing  and all that we needed and we are blessed in all ways as we transact.

Everything’s Looking Pretty


So, I am not sure where to start. I keep saying I have to get caught up with posting and do a comprehensive post but the fact of the matter is I really don’t want to relive most of what has been happening. I want to stay feeling upbeat and plan for the future.

On Tuesday, I am going to get the rest of my stuff from the old house and from then, its done. I don’t want nothing else to do with that house or the people living there ever again. I want to leave them in the past and forgotten, to their justice and to rot and roil in their own iniquities. I wish everyone in that house the full weight of karma and their judgement. I wish them misery and sadness and violence and wickedness, the same that they put out into the Universe, Selah.

I ask the Universe for an impossible sum of money, the conventional way it couldnt be, but with all of the blessings of the Universe, its miniscule. I need a few million. At least three bt I don’t have any requirements besides that. I want to build my houses, Selah. To live in the house of the Lord.

Today I feel good. The owner of the house came thru and I kicked it with him and he will help me find a next spot soon. I just paid Puff teh rent so I don’t know how thats going to work out but I’m not worried about it.

I need that money though God. Its the Hour of Jupiter, Day of the Sun. I cast the Fourth Pentacle of Jupiter at this time:

One Major Victory

I moved!!!!

In keeping with the movie of my life theme, of course its some crazy shit with it, this is me after all so can’t nothing be simple. Its all good though, we are somewhere clean and safe and I am solving all the little problems springing up one by one so everyting soon come irie.

Now, in keeping with the theme of my life, I am of course, already looking out onto the horizon. Its either that or look back and I can’t do that. I had asked God and the Universe for a new start and I feel like I am circling the airport, waiting to land but I’ve already made the trip.

I need some money now.

First, I want to travel, and see the world a little. I need to wander to center myself…

I found some places I want to go:

For Thanksgiving break and the two weeks after, I would pull Yeyah out of school and me her and the baby would

Day 1: Miami.
Board your overnight flight to South America.

Day 2: Arrive in Rio de Janeiro.
Welcome to South America’s capital of glamour—Rio de Janeiro! Rooms are ready upon arrival. Your Local Host will be available with suggested activities during your free time. Tonight, you may opt to join an outing to a churrascaria for a feast of Brazilian barbecued meats, followed by a Samba show, where the sheer vitality of this country explodes in a colorful extravaganza.

Day 3: Rio de Janeiro.
An included city tour takes you to bustling downtown Rio, where modern office towers stand next to relics of the Portuguese colonial past. View the Sambodromo and the Cathedral before visiting 300-foot-high Sugar Loaf Mountain. Ascend by cable car to its summit, where you can savor spectacular vistas of the city and beaches. The afternoon and evening are at leisure. (B)

Day 4: Rio de Janeiro.
Enjoy a full day at leisure. Your Local Host will suggest an optional Jeep tour to Tijuca National Park and its bird sanctuary. This afternoon, you may elect to discover historic Petropolis, the site of the former summer palace of Emperor Dom Pedro II. (B).

Day 5: Rio–Iguassu Falls.
Fly to Iguassu Falls. This masterpiece of nature encompasses 275 separate falls and spans almost two miles. The afternoon is dedicated to enjoying the spectacle of this 2-mile-wide torrential downpour. With some cataracts as high as 250 feet, it’s nothing short of hypnotic. The clouds of spray, the incessant roar, and the surrounding luxuriant tropical growth make this an unforgettable natural wonder. (B)

Day 6: Iguassu Falls.
This morning, take the Ecological Jungle Train and tour the Argentine side of Iguassu Falls with numerous walkways that wind under the crashing water. (B)

Day 7: Iguassu Falls–Buenos Aires.
Fly to Buenos Aires, proud capital of the vast country that occupies most of the southern part of the continent. After arriving at your central hotel, you will have time to become acquainted with the “Paris of South America” and its wide boulevards and outdoor cafés. (B)

Day 8: Buenos Aires.
Included sightseeing starts in the colorful La Boca district, site of the city’s first port. Take a short walking tour of this unique neighborhood, then on to San Telmo, famous for its late-colonial buildings and a popular gathering spot for artists. At the Plaza de Mayo, see La Casa Rosada and the Metropolitan Cathedral. Drive past the ornate Colon Opera House before reaching the Cemetery of the Recoleta, burial site of Eva Peron. This evening, perhaps take an optional excursion including dinner at a local restaurant followed by a performance of Latin America’s most sensuous dance—the Tango! (B)

Day 9: Buenos Aires.
Today is at leisure. Your Local Host will suggest an optional excursion to the Pampas. Experience Argentine country life as you visit an estancia (ranch). Get acquainted with the lifestyle of the gauchos and enjoy a barbecue lunch and the warm hospitality of your hosts before returning to the city. (B)

Day 10: Buenos Aires–Lima.
Fly to Lima, Peru today. (B)

Day 11: Lima.
Your included city tour focuses on Lima’s rich colonial history as well as the modern city. Lima was the bastion of Spanish South America from its founding in 1535 until the independence of the South American republics in the early 19th century. See the Cathedral, where the skeleton of Francisco Pizarro is sealed in a wooden coffin, and the San Francisco Monastery with its eerie burial crypts. (B)

Day 12: Lima–Cuzco.
Fly to Cuzco, nestled high in the Andes. Your guided tour visits the Santo Domingo Monastery, previously the Koricancha Temple, one of the most important temples devoted to worship of the sun. It is said it was covered in gold leaf and filled with golden representations of nature. In the Plaza de Armas, see the Cathedral before taking a short drive outside the city to the ruins of Sacsayhuaman, with its intricate stone walls, the Kenko amphitheatre, and the Red Fortress of Puca Pucara. (B)

Day 13: Cuzco.
A short drive into the Urubamba Valley brings you to Awanakancha, where you learn about the importance of the alpaca (llama) for Inca cultures as well as the ancient weaving techniques still in use today. Continue to the market town of Pisac. Handmade rugs, alpaca sweaters, and jewelry can be bought here at bargain prices. At the other end of the valley, visit the Inca fortress of Ollantaytambo, where some of the finest examples of Inca masonry can be seen. Tonight in Cuzco, maybe sample area cuisine at one of the numerous restaurants recommended by your Local Host. (B,L)

Day 14: Cuzco–Machu Picchu.
Board a train bound for Machu Picchu and cut a path through the Sacred Valley to this “Lost City of the Incas,” discovered by American explorer Hiram Bingham in 1911. On a guided tour, explore this intact fortress with its temple remains, holy houses, and mile-long aqueduct. For hikers, a brisk one-hour walk leads to the Sun Gate, the ancient entrance used by the Incas, or hike to the peak of Huayna Picchu. (B,L,D)

Day 15: Machu Picchu–Cuzco.
A morning at leisure in Machu Picchu allows you to wake up early to see the sunrise over Machu Picchu. Return to Cuzco, where your Local Host will recommend options for your free time. Perhaps visit the Inca Museum or wander through the artisan district of San Blas. (B)

Day 16: Cuzco–Lima.
Fly to Lima with some free time to relax before departing for the airport late this evening for your return flight to the U.S. (B)

Day 17: Miami.
Arrive home.

In February, during the week of Winter Recess, I am going with Das to Japan.

The perfect journey along the Golden Route… This delightful itinerary reveals the very best of Japan. Begin with the 21st century sophistication of Tokyo, Japan’s dynamic capital. Then discover the tranquil beauty of Hakone National Park, a celebrated hot springs resort. Finish your travels on a high note in ancient Kyoto – revered as the artistic, cultural and spiritual heart of the nation.

Day 1 – Welcome to Tokyo!

Check in to the city-center hotel of your choice, the superior first class Grand Palace Hotel, wonderfully situated close to the Imperial Palace, the deluxe Keio Plaza, a stylish hotel in the heart of the vibrant Shinjuku District, or thePark Hyatt, a luxury landmark set on the 14th to 52nd floors of the prestigious Shinjuku Park Tower.

Day 2 – A morning tour…

Your morning sightseeing begins atop Tokyo Tower for great views over the city. With clear skies, you might even espy Mt. Fuji in the distance. Continue to the picturesque Imperial Palace Plaza and drive through Akihabara Electric Town. Stroll among the traditional merchants of the colorful Nakamise Arcade to visit Asakusa Kannon Temple, the oldest in the city. Your tour ends downtown at Tokyo Station where dining and shopping options abound. Meals B

Day 3 – Tokyo as you please

A free day to enjoy at your own pace. Your hotel’s heart-of-it-all location makes it so easy to explore, shop and dine on your own! From April to November a tour is available to visit the magnificent Toshogu Shrine, set against the splendor of Nikko National Park. Meals B

Day 4 – Onward to Mt. Fuji & Hakone National Park

Ascend midway up the scenic, forested slopes of Mt. Fuji to the mountain’s 5th station and the Fuji Visitor Center. Enjoy a traditional Japanese lunch and then cruise across the tranquil waters of Lake Ashi to your choice of overnight accommodations, the lovely Kowaki-en or the luxurious Hyatt Regency. Both of General Tours inviting resorts promise idyllic settings surrounded by the natural beauty of Hakone National Park and the opportunity to experience a traditional onsen, or Japanese hotsprings bath. Meals B,L

Day 5 – Ride the Bullet Train to Kyoto

Travel this morning to nearby Odawara and step aboard the world-famous Shinkansen bound for Kyoto. Upon arrival, transfer to the hotel of your choice – the first class New Miyako, the deluxe ANA Kyoto Hotel, or the luxuriousHotel Okura. Meals B

Day 6 – Out and about in Kyoto

Your morning sightseeing tour explores the city’s most significant sites, starting with the oft-photographed Kinkaku-ji Temple; this Golden Pavilion shimmers in its tranquil setting surrounded by pine forests on the edge of a peaceful pond. Then enter into the Age of the Samurai at Nijo Castle. Marvel at the ingenuity of the famed Nightingale Floor, cleverly designed to chirp in warning if intruders gained entry into the Shogun’s quarters! Visit the Kyoto Imperial Palace and enjoy the balance of your day at leisure. Meals B

Day 7 – Day at leisure

A free day to spend as you wish. Your hotel’s city-center location makes it easy to step out and explore at your own pace. Or, you might join an available excursion to visit Nara, the exquisite ancient capital of Japan. Meals B

Day 8 – Depart Kyoto

General Tours tour with ends this morning.

I want to take 9 with me to see Three Continents during spring break in April. From April 19-April 30 we would

Day 1: (Wed.) Board your overnight transatlantic flight.

Day 2: Arrive in Athens, Greece.
(Thu.) Time to rest or to start exploring the Hellenic capital. At 6 pm, meet your Athens Host and traveling companions for a welcome drink.

Day 3: Athens–Piraeus (Embarkation).
(Fri.) Morning at leisure in Athens before heading for Piraeus. Around 11 am, sail into the deep blue waters of the Aegean Sea, easily settling into the cruising routine of sunbathing, sipping cool drinks, splashing in the pool, and reveling in the delights prepared by the ship’s expert chefs. Later, dock at the mountainous island of Mykonos with its characteristic windmills and dazzling white houses. Time to wander at whim through narrow paved streets lined with trendy boutiques and shady tavernas before returning on board. (B,L,D)

Day 4: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 5: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 6: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 7: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 8: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 9: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 10: Piraeus (Disembarkation)–Athens.
(Fri.) After breakfast on board, disembark at Piraeus and return to Athens. Sightseeing in Athens with a Local Guide features the Acropolis, the Erechtheum with its Porch of Maidens, the beautifully preserved Theseum, Roman Temple of Zeus, Theater of Dionysus, and the Agora where Socrates taught. Vistas of the government buildings and elegant homes in the modern city provide a striking contrast to the remains of the glorious past. The remainder of the day is free to catch up on last-minute shopping.

And then  in the summer, I want to take P with me to the Carribean to Haiti to found the Mother of God Home and to tour the islands.

Solar Tsunami to Hit the Earth…and Other News

Ok, so late breaking fearmongering non-event warning of the day:

Nasa scientists braced for ‘solar tsunami’ to hit earth

The earth could be hit by a wave of violent space weather as early as Tuesday after a massive explosion of the sun, scientists have warned.

The solar fireworks at the weekend were recorded by several satellites, including Nasa’s new Solar Dynamics Observatory which watched its shock wave rippling outwards.

A Nasa spokesman was unavailable for comment.

“This means we have a very good chance of seeing major and prolonged effects, such as the northern lights at low latitudes.”

Astronomers from all over the world witnessed the huge flare above a giant sunspot the size of the Earth, which they linked to an even larger eruption across the surface of Sun.

The explosion was aimed directly towards Earth, which then sent a “solar tsunami” racing 93 million miles across space.

Images from the SDO hint at a shock wave travelling from the flare into space, the New Scientist reported.

Experts said the wave of supercharged gas will likely reach the Earth on Tuesday, when it will buffet the natural magnetic shield protecting Earth.

It is likely to spark spectacular displays of the aurora or northern and southern lights.

Scientists have warned that a really big solar eruption could destroy satellites and wreck power and communications grids around the globe if it happened today.

Nasa recently warned that Britain could face widespread power blackouts and be left without critical communication signals for long periods of time, after the earth is hit by a once-in-a-generation “space storm”.

The Daily Telegraph disclosed in June that senior space agency scientists believed the Earth will be hit with unprecedented levels of magnetic energy from solar flares after the Sun wakes “from a deep slumber” sometime around 2013.

It remains unclear, however, how much damage this latest eruption will cause the world’s communication tools.

Dr Lucie Green, of the Mullard Space Science Laboratory, Surrey, followed the flare-ups using Japan’s orbiting Hinode telescope.

“What wonderful fireworks the Sun has been producing,” the UK solar expert said.

“This was a very rare event – not one, but two almost simultaneous eruptions from different locations on the sun were launched toward the Earth.

“These eruptions occur when immense magnetic structures in the solar atmosphere lose their stability and can no longer be held down by the Sun’s huge gravitational pull. Just like a coiled spring suddenly being released, they erupt into space.”

She added: “It looks like the first eruption was so large that it changed the magnetic fields throughout half the Sun’s visible atmosphere and provided the right conditions for the second eruption.

“Both eruptions could be Earth-directed but may be travelling at different speeds.

I bet you $20 nothing happens. We’ve had all of these dire predictions of all of this frenetic energy and great changes coming and all this because of the Cardinal Transits but its been a wash. Just frustration and the sense that something has to happen but then, nothing. Like smelling smoke but not feeling heat or finding fire…

At any rate, nothing has happened on the apartment front yet, at least to my knowledge. Hopefully, without me knowing it, the Universe is conspiring to shower me with great blessings and the house of my dreams in a few days.

Today’s Reading:

Card of the Day: The King of Wands

Past: The Wheel of Fortune –

The Wheel of Fortune indicates that the second half of the soul’s journey has begun. After exploring the realm of inner dreams and visions, The Hermit enabled the unconscious to come to light. The efforts of the Hermit completed the soul’s first half of the journey; individuation of self and the establishment of ones position in society. Yet, the Hermit now understands that he is not a slave to his position to society. It’s a choice that enables him to move within society’s constructs or well outside of them.

The Wheel of Fortune represents the unifying aspects of the psyche; the unconscious and conscious have converged. The Wheel of Fortune is the mandala which represents a spiritual wholeness and inner stability. In a tarot reading, the appearance of The Wheel of Fortune indicates that a major part of the journey has been reached. The individual is free from the oppressions of society. He knows his true self. He has walked through the darker parts of himself and he now is able to unite with his destiny.

The correlating number to The Wheel of Fortune is ten. Ten is the first of the numbers that has double digits. It symbolizes a new beginning and the completion of a life stage. Ten is considered to be a perfect number; therefore it represents perfection, harmony, and a new beginning. Its association to the Wheel of Fortune signifies the wheels ever changing movement. The new road is presented to the individual. He is invited to either jump on the path to his destiny or choose to sit aside. The center of the Wheel of Fortune represents the universe. The spokes depict the channels that lead to Self.

The Wheel of Fortunes conveys a peace of mind, the relinquishing of guilt, and the substructure of universal order. In a tarot reading, the Wheel of Fortune imparts the principles of change. Its tarot card meanings refer to the fact that nothing in this world is constant. There is always the element of uncertainty and nothing can be controlled indefinitely. The only thing that is certain is change. The Wheel of Fortune reminds us that we must learn to have acceptance and understand that all things must move forward if we are to reach enlightenment.

The negative aspect of the Wheel of Fortune represents the individual who can not see the bigger picture of his journey. He remains enclosed in his own interpretation of fate. He is not unable to learn from his mistakes nor is he capable of seeing the clues that encourage him to take a different path. He remains forever tied to what he believes is his destiny. Thus, he misses important opportunities that may bring new directions.

Upright Wheel of Fortune Tarot Card Meanings In A Tarot Reading

You are beginning a new life cycle, one that promises fortunate circumstances. Things have been set in motion that you have little control of, yet if you accept the process, change and growth will occur. This is a process of destiny and if you let it work through you, events of great significance can manifest. In your current situation, you have no personal control to influence the outcome. Allow the universe to work for you. This may be a period where there are many changes. Expect new opportunities and be willing to take some chances. When the Wheel of Fortune appears upright in your tarot spread, it may represent a new situation that will require a decision of the utmost importance. This can represent a change in your destiny. Although things may be moving rapidly, be sure you look at the bigger picture. Know that your labors will bring big rewards.

  • Fate
  • Good fortune or luck
  • Quick changes
  • Life Cycles
  • Progress


Future: Five of Pentacles (Reversed) –

Reversed Five of Pentacles Tarot Card Meanings in a Tarot Reading
The positive aspect of a Reversed Five of Pentacles refers to the end of a crisis or period of struggle. Issues surrounding money will improve. If you have been unhappy in your current job, things may turn around for you. Hard times are behind you. Emotionally, you may be coming out of a period of depression or apathy. You have found a new faith in yourself and in spiritual matters.

In some cases, the Five of Pentacles can indicate continued hardship and financial insecurity. In a tarot reading, the reversed Five of Pentacles can indicate an emotional impoverishment. This may be a period where you have nothing to give because you are emotionally tapped. In these circumstances, it’s important to remember to nurture yourself.

• New found faith
• Improved conditions
• Improvement with one’s health
• Financial hardship coming to an end

Let’s hope so!!!

The Sunshine After The Rain

Peace, dear journal. Today is astrologically significant for me – Saturn is moving into my first house.

Sunshine After The Rain

In light of this, I have come to a few realizations. The first is that I am a Writer, thats my proffession, my career.

The second is that the negative thinking that I thought protected me (If I think of the “worst, it won’t happen!), has really done nothing but hurt my life. I am good, I am blessed and working towards perfection. I get better every day and I can rise to any challenge. I am a winner. Can’t corrupt that vibe with loser thoughts.

Third, I need to meet like minded souls and people with the power to help me do more and be more.

I have been smoking weed for 14/15 years now. It hasn’t done anything but made me fat and lazy. No more smoking. Period.

My Reading today was super cool:

Card of the Day:

Nine of Cups

Smugness. No need to do another thing to obtain the fulfillment you desire, it’s here. Satisfaction. Comfort. Focus on a real and meaningful pusuit whether in the arts or love. Everything lined up and in its place. Time of fruition. Possible birth of child or project. Something that was missing has been found and put in order.

Recent Past

Strength Tarot Card

Strength and fortitude. From energy follows thought and action. Power that is respected. Quiet control of oneself and others. Need to bring strength from deep within and continue on in face of adversity. Strength of mind as well as body is needed. Difficult tasks ahead. Focus on all goals at once. Control of all resources at one’s disposal. Ability to do what is needed when time is right. Knowing oneself and one’s gifts as well as one’s weaknesses.

When Strength is in the past position of your reading, you can see the basis of your current situation stemming from a mastery of your circumstances. You maintained composure recently and are benefiting from your patience and expertise. Sometimes this card represents a state of boredom in your past that led you to stray from familiar conditions that you felt you had outgrown. Your ordinary world had been mastered and the journey you are now on is based on a desire to challenge yourself and see all that life may have to offer.

Strength really applies more to inner strength than actual physical strength. These inner qualities include love, patience and gentleness. But more importantly, this card refers to these qualities in the context that they are more important than material power, force or hate. So many people think of a show of a strength as who has the biggest army, the most weapons or in the case of one human to another, the strongest hands. Sometimes it takes more strength to offer a hand of friendship than that of war. In other words, you’ll catch more flies with honey than with vinegar.

Another meaning for this card is a possible reconciliation. If the subject is on the outs with a friend or even a lover, this card could represent that fences are about to be mended. Of course this will only be possible if you can conquer your negative emotions.

In still yet another meaning, this card shows that possible obstacles that you are facing are imagined rather than real and it is important to confront these obstacles and determine if they are indeed of substance or just something that you’ve conjured up in your own mind.

The Lion in this card is symbol of strength and courage. Often there is a woman shown on this tarot card and she represents the feminine side in everyone. This is suggestion of the more gentle and sensitive side taming the “inner beast” The woman is not killing the lion but is quietly mastering it. Strength as a Tarot card is symbol of discipline and inner determination.

Interpreting Strength in a Tarot Spread

Strength throws a protective influence over the person’s world. It provides them with the stamina and endurance needed to face up to life’s trials and tribulations. No matter what they are going through, they will be able to cope. Fate won’t throw anything their way that can’t be handled. They can overcome obstacles with courage and determination. When this card appears in someone’s spread, suggest that they might take a look around them. They will then start to notice people are there, willing to help and support them. All they have to do is ask. This card also draws attention to matters of communication such as telephone calls, letters and gossip. These could open new doors for them. It is possible that someone who was born between July 21 and August 21 will be an important part of their life at the moment.


The Chariot
Concentration on objectives is needed. Path is clear, do not get sidetracked by outside forces. Triumph. Vengeance. Overcoming of obstacles. Clearing of path to victory and one’s desires. Force of will. Strength in focus. No time for outside influences. Headstrong. Rush of energy in one’s favor now. Travel is possible. Swift nature in reaching one’s goals. Positive and quick result on the way. No time for delay in completing course of action. Strong will.

The Chariot

Are you in control? Did you just win big? Have you finally reached a new level of accomplishment? Are you being handed control of a big project? The Chariot is the Tarot card most associated with victory and control. When you see this card in a Tarot reading in times of struggle, understand that when Caesar conquered an opposing army, his victory parade made the years of struggle worth it. If you are not yet victorious, learn to appreciate your struggle, as the celebration you can have will be even more enjoyable with your challenges still fresh in your mind. If you recently accomplished a great task, be sure to revel in your enjoyment of the moment; there are no guarantees of future enjoyment, so soak up the feeling of pure triumph.
If The Chariot is in your reading’s present position, you are experiencing a great triumph at the moment. This might be something for which you have wanted for months or years. It might be something that was just handed to you and now you are feeling insecure about being in control. There are often mixed feelings that come with getting what you wanted, as an unease about the change inherent in this transformation makes one lose touch with seeing the possibilities.

Day Three : Am I Enlightened Yet?

Today is the third day of my fast. I am not hungry. I still feel troubled. Sad. I hate having to step foot on that block. I feel traumatized. I was talking to this boy today and this nigga has one hell of a story to tell. Like he thinks he’s hustling by telling people the shit he be telling them but if he were white, they would have had this nigga in a bubble to help him heal from the trauma and learn to feel safe again. I could see it so clearly relating to him but that shit is true for me too. When I told him about that shit with the block he was like Fuck ALL these people, I’m ready to fucken hurt somebody…

Shit, my nigga…me too!!!

Right now I need to feel safe again, good again and happy again. Get my mind back right and get back to where I need to be. Get back to Mecca…

I’m at the Tea Lounge right now. When I get home, I’m doing my hair and cooking and cleaning. Tomorrow I have mad errands to run with my YEs.  Afterwards I am going to take them somewhere, maybe the beach.  I need a Me in my life. I need someone who can talk to me like how I talk to people, to talk to me and to tell me everything is going to be okay. Right now, the boy I was talking about Jondell, He is fighting a real fight physically against the drugs. I am fighting a real fight against depression and melancholy. I am fighting to free my brain from the fog, from the muck and mire so it can serve me. I am fighting to keep my spirit pure. I am fighting to keep myself well, happy and free from all encumbrances. I am also fighting to be a good mother and a good woman. I am fighting to be Me.

Today I am starting the Ra Ma Da Sa Sa Say So Hung meditation…

Current Situation: Temperance

Calm and balance. Need to have patience for events surrounding you as they play out. Moderation. Accommodation. Reflection on your life. Maturity. Draw emotions in and stop overreacting to outside forces. Contemplation and reflection on events, relationships and work. Be the calming force in chaos. Possible to overcome addiction to substance, people or relationships. Obsession passing. Order being restored. Bring calm to mind and behavior patterns. A time of peace is beginning. Let it wash over you.
Recent Past: The Hermit
Time for convalescence. Need to be alone with one’s own thoughts. Need to cultivate oneself before interacting with others. Focus on inner wisdom. Loneliness. Emotional separation from others or oneself. Time to draw one’s world in and simply exist for a while. Separation from partner for one’s own mental health. Quiet is needed. Wisdom of older male coming into focus. Seek counsel of wise ones around you. Seeker of truth. Caution. Detachment. Prudence.
Future Influences: Six of Cups
Focus on kindness to others. Time to volunteer in your community or give your attention to a project that needs your unique talents. Someone close to you needs your help and assistance. Harmony. Stability. Time to appreciate what you bring to other’s lives. Enjoying the simple pleasures in life. Possible philanthropy. Surround yourself with beauty. Contentment. Engaging in play with others.
My Daily Tarot Card

Six of Swords

Time to travel, perhaps near or to water. Move to a new area. A change of pace and scenery. A slowing down. This part of your journey needs reverence and thought. Pick up the pieces and move on. Regained health, but it’s been a slow process. Take slow methodical steps. Keep your chin up, this is a time of recovery. Sadness, but not depression. Coping. Hope is renewed.

Day Two

I’m hanging in there. I have been tempted to eat today but I’m not hungry. Today, I had two things go great. I registered for school tomorrow, which stabilizes that situation. I sent my resume to TekSys so hopefully they will get me a great jobby job soon. And…Con Ed gave me till 7/29 to pay them which means the power will not be off until we move. YAY!!!!

Jumping For Joy

On Thursday, I will have the money to go get the table and chairs to do my readings. Friday will be my first day. I am so excited. Bless me Universe. Let me make $1000 this weekend…..

Let me make marvelous connections.

Let me be a great help to someone who needs it.

Bt most of all, let me make great, great great money.

Three Day Fast For Understanding

I am fasting for three days. I feel like shit.

little kid crying

Too much upheaval in my life, too much confusion. My body is drained, sabotaging me when I need to be most energetic. Theo said I am wasting good transits thru poor decisions. The decisions are the pickings of the constant flood of information. I am drowning in my own head.

This house is like a prison. I am scared of going outside and going out of control again, because I haven’t resolved any of the situations and I really don’t see how to.

We are moving in a couple of days. I can’t wait.

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