One Major Victory

I moved!!!!

In keeping with the movie of my life theme, of course its some crazy shit with it, this is me after all so can’t nothing be simple. Its all good though, we are somewhere clean and safe and I am solving all the little problems springing up one by one so everyting soon come irie.

Now, in keeping with the theme of my life, I am of course, already looking out onto the horizon. Its either that or look back and I can’t do that. I had asked God and the Universe for a new start and I feel like I am circling the airport, waiting to land but I’ve already made the trip.

I need some money now.

First, I want to travel, and see the world a little. I need to wander to center myself…

I found some places I want to go:

For Thanksgiving break and the two weeks after, I would pull Yeyah out of school and me her and the baby would

Day 1: Miami.
Board your overnight flight to South America.

Day 2: Arrive in Rio de Janeiro.
Welcome to South America’s capital of glamour—Rio de Janeiro! Rooms are ready upon arrival. Your Local Host will be available with suggested activities during your free time. Tonight, you may opt to join an outing to a churrascaria for a feast of Brazilian barbecued meats, followed by a Samba show, where the sheer vitality of this country explodes in a colorful extravaganza.

Day 3: Rio de Janeiro.
An included city tour takes you to bustling downtown Rio, where modern office towers stand next to relics of the Portuguese colonial past. View the Sambodromo and the Cathedral before visiting 300-foot-high Sugar Loaf Mountain. Ascend by cable car to its summit, where you can savor spectacular vistas of the city and beaches. The afternoon and evening are at leisure. (B)

Day 4: Rio de Janeiro.
Enjoy a full day at leisure. Your Local Host will suggest an optional Jeep tour to Tijuca National Park and its bird sanctuary. This afternoon, you may elect to discover historic Petropolis, the site of the former summer palace of Emperor Dom Pedro II. (B).

Day 5: Rio–Iguassu Falls.
Fly to Iguassu Falls. This masterpiece of nature encompasses 275 separate falls and spans almost two miles. The afternoon is dedicated to enjoying the spectacle of this 2-mile-wide torrential downpour. With some cataracts as high as 250 feet, it’s nothing short of hypnotic. The clouds of spray, the incessant roar, and the surrounding luxuriant tropical growth make this an unforgettable natural wonder. (B)

Day 6: Iguassu Falls.
This morning, take the Ecological Jungle Train and tour the Argentine side of Iguassu Falls with numerous walkways that wind under the crashing water. (B)

Day 7: Iguassu Falls–Buenos Aires.
Fly to Buenos Aires, proud capital of the vast country that occupies most of the southern part of the continent. After arriving at your central hotel, you will have time to become acquainted with the “Paris of South America” and its wide boulevards and outdoor cafés. (B)

Day 8: Buenos Aires.
Included sightseeing starts in the colorful La Boca district, site of the city’s first port. Take a short walking tour of this unique neighborhood, then on to San Telmo, famous for its late-colonial buildings and a popular gathering spot for artists. At the Plaza de Mayo, see La Casa Rosada and the Metropolitan Cathedral. Drive past the ornate Colon Opera House before reaching the Cemetery of the Recoleta, burial site of Eva Peron. This evening, perhaps take an optional excursion including dinner at a local restaurant followed by a performance of Latin America’s most sensuous dance—the Tango! (B)

Day 9: Buenos Aires.
Today is at leisure. Your Local Host will suggest an optional excursion to the Pampas. Experience Argentine country life as you visit an estancia (ranch). Get acquainted with the lifestyle of the gauchos and enjoy a barbecue lunch and the warm hospitality of your hosts before returning to the city. (B)

Day 10: Buenos Aires–Lima.
Fly to Lima, Peru today. (B)

Day 11: Lima.
Your included city tour focuses on Lima’s rich colonial history as well as the modern city. Lima was the bastion of Spanish South America from its founding in 1535 until the independence of the South American republics in the early 19th century. See the Cathedral, where the skeleton of Francisco Pizarro is sealed in a wooden coffin, and the San Francisco Monastery with its eerie burial crypts. (B)

Day 12: Lima–Cuzco.
Fly to Cuzco, nestled high in the Andes. Your guided tour visits the Santo Domingo Monastery, previously the Koricancha Temple, one of the most important temples devoted to worship of the sun. It is said it was covered in gold leaf and filled with golden representations of nature. In the Plaza de Armas, see the Cathedral before taking a short drive outside the city to the ruins of Sacsayhuaman, with its intricate stone walls, the Kenko amphitheatre, and the Red Fortress of Puca Pucara. (B)

Day 13: Cuzco.
A short drive into the Urubamba Valley brings you to Awanakancha, where you learn about the importance of the alpaca (llama) for Inca cultures as well as the ancient weaving techniques still in use today. Continue to the market town of Pisac. Handmade rugs, alpaca sweaters, and jewelry can be bought here at bargain prices. At the other end of the valley, visit the Inca fortress of Ollantaytambo, where some of the finest examples of Inca masonry can be seen. Tonight in Cuzco, maybe sample area cuisine at one of the numerous restaurants recommended by your Local Host. (B,L)

Day 14: Cuzco–Machu Picchu.
Board a train bound for Machu Picchu and cut a path through the Sacred Valley to this “Lost City of the Incas,” discovered by American explorer Hiram Bingham in 1911. On a guided tour, explore this intact fortress with its temple remains, holy houses, and mile-long aqueduct. For hikers, a brisk one-hour walk leads to the Sun Gate, the ancient entrance used by the Incas, or hike to the peak of Huayna Picchu. (B,L,D)

Day 15: Machu Picchu–Cuzco.
A morning at leisure in Machu Picchu allows you to wake up early to see the sunrise over Machu Picchu. Return to Cuzco, where your Local Host will recommend options for your free time. Perhaps visit the Inca Museum or wander through the artisan district of San Blas. (B)

Day 16: Cuzco–Lima.
Fly to Lima with some free time to relax before departing for the airport late this evening for your return flight to the U.S. (B)

Day 17: Miami.
Arrive home.

In February, during the week of Winter Recess, I am going with Das to Japan.

The perfect journey along the Golden Route… This delightful itinerary reveals the very best of Japan. Begin with the 21st century sophistication of Tokyo, Japan’s dynamic capital. Then discover the tranquil beauty of Hakone National Park, a celebrated hot springs resort. Finish your travels on a high note in ancient Kyoto – revered as the artistic, cultural and spiritual heart of the nation.

Day 1 – Welcome to Tokyo!

Check in to the city-center hotel of your choice, the superior first class Grand Palace Hotel, wonderfully situated close to the Imperial Palace, the deluxe Keio Plaza, a stylish hotel in the heart of the vibrant Shinjuku District, or thePark Hyatt, a luxury landmark set on the 14th to 52nd floors of the prestigious Shinjuku Park Tower.

Day 2 – A morning tour…

Your morning sightseeing begins atop Tokyo Tower for great views over the city. With clear skies, you might even espy Mt. Fuji in the distance. Continue to the picturesque Imperial Palace Plaza and drive through Akihabara Electric Town. Stroll among the traditional merchants of the colorful Nakamise Arcade to visit Asakusa Kannon Temple, the oldest in the city. Your tour ends downtown at Tokyo Station where dining and shopping options abound. Meals B

Day 3 – Tokyo as you please

A free day to enjoy at your own pace. Your hotel’s heart-of-it-all location makes it so easy to explore, shop and dine on your own! From April to November a tour is available to visit the magnificent Toshogu Shrine, set against the splendor of Nikko National Park. Meals B

Day 4 – Onward to Mt. Fuji & Hakone National Park

Ascend midway up the scenic, forested slopes of Mt. Fuji to the mountain’s 5th station and the Fuji Visitor Center. Enjoy a traditional Japanese lunch and then cruise across the tranquil waters of Lake Ashi to your choice of overnight accommodations, the lovely Kowaki-en or the luxurious Hyatt Regency. Both of General Tours inviting resorts promise idyllic settings surrounded by the natural beauty of Hakone National Park and the opportunity to experience a traditional onsen, or Japanese hotsprings bath. Meals B,L

Day 5 – Ride the Bullet Train to Kyoto

Travel this morning to nearby Odawara and step aboard the world-famous Shinkansen bound for Kyoto. Upon arrival, transfer to the hotel of your choice – the first class New Miyako, the deluxe ANA Kyoto Hotel, or the luxuriousHotel Okura. Meals B

Day 6 – Out and about in Kyoto

Your morning sightseeing tour explores the city’s most significant sites, starting with the oft-photographed Kinkaku-ji Temple; this Golden Pavilion shimmers in its tranquil setting surrounded by pine forests on the edge of a peaceful pond. Then enter into the Age of the Samurai at Nijo Castle. Marvel at the ingenuity of the famed Nightingale Floor, cleverly designed to chirp in warning if intruders gained entry into the Shogun’s quarters! Visit the Kyoto Imperial Palace and enjoy the balance of your day at leisure. Meals B

Day 7 – Day at leisure

A free day to spend as you wish. Your hotel’s city-center location makes it easy to step out and explore at your own pace. Or, you might join an available excursion to visit Nara, the exquisite ancient capital of Japan. Meals B

Day 8 – Depart Kyoto

General Tours tour with ends this morning.

I want to take 9 with me to see Three Continents during spring break in April. From April 19-April 30 we would

Day 1: (Wed.) Board your overnight transatlantic flight.

Day 2: Arrive in Athens, Greece.
(Thu.) Time to rest or to start exploring the Hellenic capital. At 6 pm, meet your Athens Host and traveling companions for a welcome drink.

Day 3: Athens–Piraeus (Embarkation).
(Fri.) Morning at leisure in Athens before heading for Piraeus. Around 11 am, sail into the deep blue waters of the Aegean Sea, easily settling into the cruising routine of sunbathing, sipping cool drinks, splashing in the pool, and reveling in the delights prepared by the ship’s expert chefs. Later, dock at the mountainous island of Mykonos with its characteristic windmills and dazzling white houses. Time to wander at whim through narrow paved streets lined with trendy boutiques and shady tavernas before returning on board. (B,L,D)

Day 4: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 5: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 6: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 7: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 8: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 9: Cruising.
(Sat. to Thu.) Enjoy your cruise to Istanbul, Mykonos, Ashdod (Israel), Port Said (Egypt), Alexandria (Egypt), Aghios Nikalaos (Crete). (B,L,D)

Day 10: Piraeus (Disembarkation)–Athens.
(Fri.) After breakfast on board, disembark at Piraeus and return to Athens. Sightseeing in Athens with a Local Guide features the Acropolis, the Erechtheum with its Porch of Maidens, the beautifully preserved Theseum, Roman Temple of Zeus, Theater of Dionysus, and the Agora where Socrates taught. Vistas of the government buildings and elegant homes in the modern city provide a striking contrast to the remains of the glorious past. The remainder of the day is free to catch up on last-minute shopping.

And then  in the summer, I want to take P with me to the Carribean to Haiti to found the Mother of God Home and to tour the islands.

Random Family

I first heard about Boy George from my Kid’s Father. Boy George was a large drug nigga like Alpo and Fat Cat but from the Bronx where my kid’s father is from. I heard this nigga had the James Bond cars that shot oil from the tail and tacks to flatten tires of anybody trying to carchasel him and that he had parties where Jody Watley and other stars at the peak of their careers performed. I heard some other shit that didn’t make it into the book and is therefore not my place to repeat.

So when I found this book  Random Family (on a stoop) and saw his name in the blurb about the book, I thought this was going to be along the lines of Scarface or American Gangster.

I have to segue a lil’ into a whole other tangent.

All along, for some time now, I’ve been asking for a teacher or a guide. My kids father was my teacher and guide for a long time. Then it became like how when you first start taking piano lessons you feel like your teacher is a master but after awhile you practice the chords and repeat, repeat, repeat until you find your own intuitive ability. Then you start veering off, playing with different melodies and developing your innate talent. After a while, there isn’t anything more to learn from that teacher and you have to move on.  When the focus of our relationship became drama, mistrust, hostility, suspicion and dishonesty, he couldn’t teach me anymore because I didn’t want to learn that and it was like his focus became trying to destroy me. The more I started really seeing the ugly things he said, did or thought the further and further away I felt from him to where mentally we don’t connect anymore. And because I stopped trusting him , he stopped being an authority on anything to me.

One day, and I swear I’m not even bullshitting this man came on TV and started saying things that tied into all the millions of thoughts running around the hamster wheel of my brain. I went ahead and when I got the money, bought the CDs he was talking about.

I didnt have the money right then so for about a month, I just thought about it and thought about it. I researched Sri Yantra and sacred geometry and the “tulpa” and mad shit was going thru my head but in broken strands not in any orbit. When I first listened to the tapes, I was feeling like this was too simple and the man was really only saying the same things over and over but there were little things that he said that struck me and let me know if this wasnt the real shit it was very close to it.

So anyway, last week I’m listening to this man and it is relevant that he’s a WHITE man talking about how you can create great wealth or whatever the hell you want with your mind and how this is the secret of success. And I applied it and it worked a little to show me that it works.

Then I started reading this book and it turned out to not be a scintillating urban action thriller at all but the story of a Bronx family. The tragic, heartbreaking and painful story of the shit that we as Black women all go thru, about the lack, degradation, misery, confinement and brokenness that has  become us. Everybody in this book, (except for Boy George who knows the EXACT shit I paid that guide to teach me when I bought those CDs and who put it in the realest way possible so you can feel it), is powerless.

This dude that was down with GW Bush said “We’re history’s actors. We create realities while you stand around and study what we do.”

I have been living a made life, made by other people, studying their moves after they’ve made them, always playing catch-up, trying to make $250 out of $.50.

When I started this blog, I thought it would play out as me rewinding tape and editing out some parts, splicing the good back together and rolling footage. But now its looking like I have to take this straight to DVD. Its turning into something totally different.

Some Shit You Gotta Do For The Movie

I regret that I came in to the training class at MS the year I did. If I had come the year before, I would have trained with Dawson and Stacy and shit would have turned out differently big time.

Instead, I came in with Bobby and James and shit turned out fucked up. Bobby is reprehensible. That little stubby fucker is not fat but he is still somehow the Biggest Loser year after year after year. Bobby sucks. James on the other hand, was not only cooler than a fan but  in one conversation this dude changed my whole life. If this nigga had passed training, I shudder to think what would have happened. But of course, nothing gold can stay, so that ugly ass girl that said she was 25 but looked 38 fucked with him until he left.

The day he changed my life,  I was kicking it with James and he tells me that if he ever saw Mary J Blidge or Lil Kim or et cetera walking down the street, he would  jump out in front of them and just start throwing dollar bills, making it rain on these bitches.

I was like, why, why would you do that?

He goes, for the movie. Its certain things you just have to do for the movie of your life.

Yesterday some shit happened that’s definitely going in the movie. I had just come from WIC and I was walking up the block when I decided to go into the famous Carol’s Daughter to see what was popping. I’d heard so much about this spot and I’m a fiend for anything with the word “natural” on the label. The shit could be naturally artificial, real like a duplicate and all my ass will see is the “natural” still and cop two. And don’t let it smell nice cause then I’ll be mainlining it.

Anyway, I went into CD’s and had a disconcerting experience. The big gorrilla bear working in there was dark skinned, bald and had one of those full beards like niggas from Philly.  He kept bringing everything way too close to my face like he was trying to push up but when this guy opened his mouth, he sounded like a white woman. I don’t know how this muhfucka got all the base out his voice but word to everything,  it sounded like he was talking through his nose while someone was squeezing his balls.

I left out of there grimacing. The soap was wack and real infantile too, which made me feel like the whole spot was wack, homeboy not withstanding. He wasn’t wack,  he was iconic because this gorilla bear burned himself into my memory. I was walking up the block, shaking my head and just on the humble, I checked my blackberry.

5:05 That Dude.

(I hate that I have to assign an alias but his name is instantly recognizable and I have to see what it is before I shout homie out like that.)

At five oh-five pm, on April 5, this dude  hit me up on the BB. I saw that shit, I started bugging. I was laughing and screaming and I had to just stop for a second and look again. And yep, it was still there.

I hope soooo bad this turns out to be some shit for the movie…